Another road

Some time ago, I asked my mother about my friend Dara. Dara was my best friend and the closest girl I ever held to my heart as a young boy (and it was a very brief period of my life at that). My mother insisted I check some important documents.

I discovered my grades from 2nd to sixth grade and discovered that I always had the same trend in Elementary as I did in later life (always 8 average it seems). I was surprised to discover I had only satisfactory grades in Math...funny considering I had to deal with higher math all the way to the end.

More importantly I rediscovered the nature of the special education I was to receive at Eastern had I continued living in the states - Humanities and Communications.

Not long ago I described in detail to a friend that I could have chosen 2 alternative paths in life before being an engineer (well three, but Computer Science might as well just left me without knowledge of Electronics). I could choose being a student of Visual Arts and die of poverty or become a Graphics Designer and die of frustration (I don't like technique that much).

Apart from the arts, I now know that I did have the skills to become a child of the humanities or that of communications (politics or marketing). Odd since I have to deal with students from both these days. I've always known that engineering was just a means to an end - I only ever cared about videogames. I have knowledge that I could've gone somewhere else, the opposite of engineering and sciences (art having been middle ground I guess).

My great grandfather, a learned man of law and once a governor, forbade any of his children or grandchildren to go the path of the humanities, though he never said anything of me...he died before I was born. Nonetheless I shared his view at one point, considering all human matters to be a waste of time, but now I must admit...I was only running away.

On the one hand, it's sad nothing human is truly quantifiable - so we can fix things; on the other, the mystery of our humanity is what keeps me alive and faithful.

That we are able to love, hate and live...those are the greatest miracles I have found myself with. I am a humanist who has seen that the grass isn't any greener on the other side of the spectrum of knowledge. I endeavor to love and to live...God help me should the need ever arise to hate.

Today I woke up with a small sinus headache and so I have the right side of my head complaining a bit. Nonetheless I think I'm feeling relatively at peace which means something must be right, despite the rollercoaster of emotions I've gone through this past week.

I've been assigned to a project I've always wanted to participate in, though in the process losing an interesting project on the iPad, but I'm happy to be not left out (yeah I 'm sensitive about that). Also the first videogame I actually participated from start to finish, Primrose, has finally been released on the Nintendo Store for DSi (and sold more than Save the Turtles - on it's first day 300 copies were downloaded).

There is still a matter of contention with my last project and Nintendo but I think that we can count on smooth sailing (at least no big surprise) for the next week and thus have Sabarasa Mexico's second DSiWare title (third for the whole company) coming soon (I can't officially say which one but a lot of people out there have a good idea what it is).

All in all I can't complain. If I were rested, I'd say I am very happy, but I'm also getting used to having my feelings out there. Opening my heart is still a lot of work and I'm starting to understand a lot of things logic and cold hard reasoning could not explain. I'm hoping that this path will lead me to greater pleasures and more frequent moments of happiness. I'm also hoping that this unbinding of the heart will allow me to have a girlfriend soon (though Paul the Octopus predicts I won't find any love for the next two months).

There are people enough in my life, from different corners and extremes of it, still the void I have been feeling since Germany has not been filled. I hope I can fill it and go on to greater adventures soon :)

Nice tribute to Karate Kid

I jus saw Karate Kid, with Jayden Smith, and I like the values you find in it: Adaptability, moving forward, following your heart...etc.

I was already a fan of the former Karate Kid series with Ralph Machio and Pat Morita (Miyagi Forever), but I also became a fan of Bruce Lee, David Carradine, many Wushu films from china and some Quentin Tarantino favorites. The revamped karate kid, though it has nothing 'karate' in it, bridges the gap between different genres of martial arts with a nod to ol' Miyagi.

I always wanted to give back something to the generations of today and tommorrow but I think somethings are best left to other people, like this film. There's a lot you can still rescue for the children of today and for the child within us.